August 15th

That's the day that he will be leaving ... I know it's pretty silly to think that he has something for me .. But I really do think that there's something more than friends. I know this is not right but I enjoyed each email exchanged .. all the things that he said and the effort taken to find my art work for me .. I'm gonna get inked soon and he's a part of it .. I know nothing's goingto come out of this .. But I am cherishing each moment of it ..

Realize

I actually felt cold wind when I heard the news.. Caller on the other end even had to repeat what she said to make sure I was still there.. Obviously I didn't see it coming.. I mean I had a feeling that this was his plan but I just never expected it to be true. Now that I know, I am simply speechless.. Why do I feel like this? It wouldn't make much difference if he's around or not... Not that we talk all the time or see each other all the time. I just feel the sting .. and it's not a good feeling .. I really really hope that that this will go away ..