Realize

I actually felt cold wind when I heard the news.. Caller on the other end even had to repeat what she said to make sure I was still there.. Obviously I didn't see it coming.. I mean I had a feeling that this was his plan but I just never expected it to be true. Now that I know, I am simply speechless.. Why do I feel like this? It wouldn't make much difference if he's around or not... Not that we talk all the time or see each other all the time. I just feel the sting .. and it's not a good feeling .. I really really hope that that this will go away ..